First Blog post. A lot going on, but nothing. At least I'm not supid lazy or crazy. Wow, four weeks yesterday I left my job. What have I done in a month? Well, went to Coldarado for a week with the family, did some skiing and some family time. Got sick for a week upon my return. And started looking for a job. Oh, also, exploring whether I have ADD, by the way. This could be a life changing thing and I want to give it time and not skip over the important stuff, like the work that will be involved in finding out. Also, won't see a psychiatrist until May 15, so meantime I've seen a psychologist, career coach. Not sure how much value there was in doing that. Maybe the "real" doc will be more insightful. While it was good to get feedback from the coach, a different perspective on my work situation, I feel like there were no conclusions made. Of course, he can't make a diagnosis and coming to some conclusions will take time. He did give me something to work on which I have started building toward.
Feeling like I'm in limbo land though. Because I need to do the work and figure out what jobs would be good for me if I do have ADD. But I think I already know what I want to do. That is, I would like to do a similar job, Account Management or Business Development at a marketing communications agency or corporate communications within a company. As long as I can have a hand in content development. I don't have to initiate all the content, but I would like to be part of the development process, have a hand in its creation. The creative part of me was unsatisfied in my last position. I think this contributed to my frustation and poor performance. I was unconnected to the final output, the product we were selling. Except in the case of running a symposium, where I was Johnny on the Spot, loved that high energy and lots of moving parts. And also working on the DVD, producing it, getting the transitions right. Would have liked to work with a different vendor, though, sorry to have missed out on that.
The limbo part is, what if I am diagnosed with ADD, how will that change my job search strategy? And what if I am not diagnosed with ADD, what does that mean? That I have some of the symptoms and will have to find a job that maximizes my strengths and minimizes my weaknesses. I don't know that that job will be. I want to be open to all the possibilities. Don't crowd me in.
